December 31, 2016 § Leave a comment
Sometimes, we won’t appreciate what we have until it’s gone. However, for me on the other side of loss, it’s a different story.
I’ve loved and I’ve lost. I’ve hurt. I’ve numbed. I’ve retreated into isolation. I’ve fled. I’ve explored. I’ve come home.
Somewhere along the line, the numbness receded. I went from unfeeling to living again.
Throughout 2014-2015, I accomplished a life journey through 18 countries and across 5 continents that I hadn’t dreamed possible until well into my retirement.
Much of my 2016 was spent wondering, “What now? Why am I here?”
Many of my travels were done solo. As I explored, I grew. I learned so much about who I was and the woman I wanted to become.
I typically spend my time between Christmas Day and New Year’s Day reflecting on the previous year and planning for the year to come. This year, I’m focused on the people in my life today and how to share more moments together.
My co-author on The Muse and Views, David, once posted a great post about friends for a season, a reason or a lifetime.
We all have important people in our lives, friends, family and spouses who think the world of us and who continue to support our dreams and our journeys.
In 2015, three different people, one of whom I had just met, a close family member and a family friend all had the same comment… almost word for word, they each said to me: “You’re surrounded by people all of the time… and yet you’re alone.”
They saw the results of my isolation, my being numb.
I’m hopeful in 2017 we’ll see the efforts I’ve made to open my home and my heart this year.
Consciously choosing to open myself up again is how I appreciate the people – friends, family and otherwise – that are in front of me today, while they’re here.
Friends, family and otherwise… I love you. Thank you for everything you bring to me now and every day.
Happy New Year.